chan chan

 

i just came back from a b-town (batam),a sunny island which i used to live..although b-town was not my hometown but it's a place where i met my two bestfriends,bestfriends for life...b-town is also a place where few important chapters in my life was set...days with my momma,days filled of fun and laughter with my playground bunchies,childhood love stories and staying in the same house with my this two little cousins who are now growing so fast that i feel like im doubling my age...while i was packing my old remnants,i found this picture which i took eons years ago...

chan chan,the older brother,who used to follow me around when he was a kid,especially when we were going to play basketball. a kiddo who always try to play bball like the adult and shooting the balls into the ring with his tiny hand and small feet, now, goes to training almost everyday,won many games,becoming a great playmaker in his team and amusingly it's my turn to fetch him home from his training on my few night stays at b-town..feeling so proud of him that he is going to be a great man but on the other hand,i feel dejected..this kid who used to be showered with many loves before,a young prince he was,had changed so much now due to his circumtances. the look behind his shy and smiling face,i can sense a different side of him that i want to do so much for him and his brother,to make them happy,happier than other kids in this world...at that moment i wished i have the power of Santa!

why sometimes our feeling so overwhelming but cant express much and do much...infuriate,so infuriating....
only Hope and our faith that needs to be stronger cos all ends according to His will...a beautiful will...

God is with you and me

This is a view from the top of Bromo mountain, courtesy of a brother, Robby.
notes: no phosop editing or any sort of editing, pure capture.

when i first looked at this picture i was amazed, really amazed by how God create this world. Despites all the calamities that surrounding the world now, i believe there are rays of Hope... so please dont give up...

pray for Japan and please stop wars!

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9

seeds of hope

There seems to be a mountain of obstacles preventing people from being where their hearts want to be. It is so painful to watch and experience. The astonishing thing is that the battle for survival has become so "normal" that few people really believe that it can be different......
Oh how important is discipline,community,prayer,silence,caring presence,simple listening,adoration and deep lasting faithful friendship. We all want it so much, and still the powers suggesting that all of that is fantasy are enormous. But we have to replace the battle for power with the battle to create space for the spirit....

a quote from Henri Nouwen's book "Seeds of Hope"

when violet is a boy

The only things in life you regret, Are the risks that you didnt take - anonymous 

today i feel that i have a close bonding with the sky, or maybe i'm looking for the comfort excuses so nobody knows....because when the raindrops, it drops together with my droplets, my sad droplets.

and at the same time today i finally used the remedy of "sunshine after the rain", when the bus keep moving forward, the somber skies also moving away telling me that everything is going to be alright...

this lane, oh my violet boy, is going to be a wild ride...though you'll be far far away for a long long time,i wont stop praying for you and each click of time, you are slowly become part of me. Did i feel like this before? those questions are no more important. all i know that now i'm living with anticipation, looking forward to our precious serenidipity. oh my violet boy, no more turning back, so please keep the fuel full all the time!this ride is going to be rockier than ever!the dope that i ever really need is your pulse beating only for me to complete this journey!it's all i can ask..

you can shine!

22nd level

the wind shook some blossoms from the trees
the heavy lilac-blooms with their clustering stars
moved to and fro in the languid air
a grasshopper began to chirrup by the wall
here she rest on the 22nd level,
fate had in store for her
exquisite joy and exquisite sorrows
swirl of stairs lay below
willing to catch her anytime
but it's too late for her to give up
to reach the top of the roof
so for now,let her indulge in her sleep
on the bed of love,lose her way
in the dream world,a sweet dream world

One great Woman!

 

Bunda Titiek Puspa, she was diagnosed with cancer not long ago and on the stage she was a true performer with powerful voice,at her age,she is admirable!

 Nadine,puteri Indonesia 2010

 Cathy sharon

 Titi Kamal, she is very sweet!

 oh,i so want what's on Laura!

 Eca, her twin is called Eci, they are like the Olsens sister of Indonesia

 the stage

 Puteri Indonesia

 

Ilmira Usmanova,a model from Uzbekistan and married with Indonesian's actor, Teuku Zacky

oriental looks!

i was with the make up team for the Anne Avantie's 20th year show,it was quite an experience,meeting many new people and witness tiny part behind the scene of Indonesia celebrities but this time it's not about me,it's going to be all about her,bunda Anne and "Damai Negeriku" show.

I dont really know her very well before, all i know that she is a great designer who produces beautiful Kebaya gowns and dress.At that night,i was astonished by the theatrical fashion show she held,and at the same time i was glad that bunda Anne has beautiful personalities,she is humble and kind despite being a lime light on the stage and everywhere she goes, she is a true star and a wonderful inspirational woman.i think she is one of the "pahlawan"(warrior) Indonesia.The way she built her passion from scratch to where she is now was inspiring!The show showed us a big part about her and her contributions that made you feel "words cant describe,goosebumps all the way!" type of emotions.She brought Indonesia to another level and another thing i like from her is that she always praise God!

"ekor hanya mampu berada di belakang" (tails never be the head) - Anne Avantie