Not just pictures

How i wish there is a somebody who capture every scenes in my life?

all the things that happened to me,things that happened too fast,sometimes i feel too exhausted to explain anything,to share it in writing,to even say it verbally.

I wish pictures tell my story,and someone can understand it.

but,i'm selfish. I need privacy.

The peak point that happened to me these few days ago,Devi no longer an executive lady.I found no passion at all being a secretary,and if i stay for few days or hours more,i might turning myself into nobody,into somebody that full of mistakes,into somebody who is far way from being an angel,into somebody who is not myself. A girl who in love with adventures
Thanks God,i realised it fast,escaped from it fast and end it nicely.

A turning point of my life?Maybe...

Anyway, today,with SLR camera that I borrowed from Hendra,yearning to be a real photographer,travel to places,capture beautiful moments and interesting objects is growing wildly in my heart. :]

and thanks to Jennita for being my cutesy,lovely model today.

I miss Lolla too

just for my lollipop

Hard as stone
with hidden fears
she love in silence
no one hears

Eyes of ice
never to melt
locked feelings
never felt

Spirit of steel
never broken
frozen emotions
left unspoken

Heart of gold
sweet as can be
beautiful soul
she means so much to me

thank you for these days La,
He is so cute that i found you in my msn

What makes you an idol?

I was having idol fever..the very first time,i never miss any of American Idol seasons,I sat nicely infront of the rectangle box everyweek and became the histerical fan,pause,not to that extent yet.haha. I survived through the end of the season,like Devi like David...hehehe...Indeed,my judgement didnot fail me this time.David Cook won the title.he deserved it,though everybody predicted that the little David is the one but...... :]

What makes you an idol?
Basically,the first of all,an idol must have physical attractiveness.Handsome and pretty and handsome and pretty. Simple as that.though i find it relative.
this is why come the second one,character: People person.hahaha...lovable,out-going and funny.
the third one will be the achievements and talents.

As long as you have one of that,you have what it takes to be an idol.The plus-plus point will be all those above.

Myself?frankly, I'm an idol too.
My fans?No. I only need one fan.
Jesus Christ is my fan,sounds amusing?
let me elaborate:
As for those who knows me,I'm not a top model,i'm not a top student in school,i cant really play an instrument,and I'm just an average sunday school teacher but I have one fan who knows me more than myself,who will supports me till the end,who will never leave me for another person,who is not plin-plan(read;when He has choosen me,He chosed me),He never stop giving presents to me. I'm better than those idols you find anywhere and for those of you the Son and Daughter of my Daddy. Aren't you glad? because you are an Idol too.

I have a Panda joke for today :]

A panda walks into a restaurant, sits down, and orders a sandwich. He eats the sandwich, pulls out a gun, and shoots the waiter dead. As the panda stands up to go, the manager shouts, "Hey! Where are you going? You just shot my waiter, and you didn't even pay for your sandwich!"
"Hey, man, I'm a PANDA"

The manager opens his dictionary and reads:
Panda: A tree-dwelling marsupial of Asian origin, characterized by distinct black and white coloring. Eat shoots and leaves.

Onii chan

as requested,this is my onii chan

First kiss, a sweet and lovely Japanese drama that i just watched.I like drama with charming and pretty casts,they have it. This story is mainly about a brother who loves her sister whom only left with 50% chances to live . The way how the brother concerned and did everything for her,reminds me of my own brother.
Frankly, i'm in close term with my brother only since 3 years ago. We've been stranger since we were young. I moved to Medan for 9 years and he was at Jakarta.Like the sequel in the drama,but fortunately i'm not dying and our parents are not divorce. He went to America when i moved back again to Jakarta. Our path never meet though we are siblings. I knew all about him through my relatives.He is a quiet and extrovert guy,they say.
When my mum fell sick,really sick,he came back to Indonesia. He also came to Singapore when my mum was hospitalised at one of the hospital here,taking care of her when i'm at school. Slowly, I began to know him.I began to be pampered by him.I began to earn scolding from him, I began to joke with him, I began to do what normally siblings do.
My relatives were amazed by the way how he treat me,they says that he has changed.Maybe love changed him,because he met his wife in America.Doesnt matter anymore in any way because i'm contented of who he is now.
I used to deny that I have a brother when questioning about sibling,but now I'm proud to have him as my brother who supports me in everything I do until today,provide me with the things that I need and a brother who is now my strong pillar when I have none.
Thank you ko Charles! :]
P.S: Sometimes it may be abit late but at the end you will still found it because you are bond by blood and Love is strong!

Today......

On the same date and month but a different day and time however I remember clearly what happened back then last year.
The sweetest day in my life at that point of year.
You are the gift,an imperfect give but the sweetest gift.
Although it's not an everlasting gift but trust me you are precious.
Thank you, once again.

God bless me From A to J Last week!

An amazing sweet Sunday,He showed me Live that He is Real through Children,my fellow Sunday school teachers and myself. Again, I'm at another level. :]

Baptist certificate was ready in time after a long period of waiting. :]

Celebrating Mothers day,I just kept in silent but God asked me to tell someone how great is my mum,i told ce Anita and i was glad that she said my mum is a FUN MUM!I felt better. :]

Dying to eat Indomie,He gave me a chance to shop at Batam's supermarket and bought plenty of them although it was a futile trip. :]

Enough allowance to spend on the heavy taxes when taking the ferry to Batam. :]

Feeling great when Zen & Dra fetched me from jetty and was impressed by the bulky blue rocky car,an urge to try driving but He reminded that I have an important thing to do. :]

Grumble and fidgeting when seating at the outdoor cabin because of the smoke puffs, He made me fell asleep throughout the whole journey, I had a peaceful sleep. :]

He let me encounter him and He taught me to be calm, thanks for the bubble tea. :]

I was tired and restless and confused because of my birth cert but He reassured me that everything is going to be alright and yes, I found my birth cert. :]

Jesus made me love children more and more after the Sunday service. :]

My Daddy is a comedian

LOlla!I got it too!I got it too!A big hug for you :]
Indeed anointing and an amazing night although I was feeling self-conscious because of my super mini skirt that I was forced to wear because i woke up late in the morning to work and I only have my crumpled shirt,oh iron man!please stay at braddel.
I was worried that Ce Biena or any other leaders will look at me in a different way :[ (this because i know it's inappropriate to dress that way to church )
Thanks to Andreas who brought me a huge jacket that can cover my whole leg!:P
I was amazed by Him,He loves us so much that He is showing us that He can be a comedian through Holy Spirit. Our daily life basis for some of us is from YouTube,television,or even movie in cinema [envy you for having more allowance than me:)]. We watched many type of pilem;sad story,romantic story,thriller,horror [not for me] and almost 80% of the population in this world love the most,comedy movie. He knew it,He wants us to experience it in Him too,Oh Daddy,you are so jealous.I can sense it!:P...
You made it Dad,Your comedy is so funny that it cannot be compared to all the comedy movie in this universe and it's free! I love You so so so much!
P.S: What's next Dad?I know You love me dearly too,no horror please! :P

Love the movie too - my leornado :]

little glimpse of my ability

Yesterday,at cell group we are told to unleash our potential..
For the past 19 years of school,awarded being a TOP student were a rare oppurtunity due to my endless sleeping and chit-chating in class.OOPS :P
This is why,it is so easy for me to remember the achievement that i'm proud of during my school time.
It was my Literature class,I like literature especially when the material taught were from ShakeSpeare collections.And at that time,it was all about Romeo & Juliet.
Do you realise that when you like the subject you'll make a perfect piece?
I did, my Romeo & Juliet project was the best in the class because I managed to get an A plus star.[read:A*] My teacher even requested to keep the piece,i was honoured to let her have it but now i'm regreting it.
I'm not boasting or anything but i really will do the best when I'm interested.
Compare to Mathematics,I do like that subject but that subject doesn't like me at all,it even screwed me all the while. So i've lose interest in it. :]

This is some verse that is so sweet from Romeo & Juliet,although it's a romance,unfortunately it's not happy ending.

Romeo:How silver-sweet sound lovers' tongues by night,Like softest music to attending ears!

Romeo: Did my heart love 'til now? Forswear its sight. For I never saw true beauty 'til this night.

Romeo: O, wilt thou leave me so unsatisfied?
Juliet: What satisfaction canst thou have tonight?
Romeo: The exchange of thy love's faithful vow for mine.
Juliet: I gave thee mine before thou didst request it!

Romeo: But, soft! what light through yonder window breaks? It is the east, and Juliet is the sun.

And when they kissed,i like the part when Juliet says to Romeo : You kiss by the book

P.S: love like there's no tomorrow. :]

losing feather

Time, like a river, keeps on rollin' right on by
Nothin' left for her to do
So she just watch the river rise....

Angel? not so after all...
she is Imperfect because she has shed some of her feathers...
a definition to grow new feathers...

She wants the people around her to be happy.
she will do all kind of means.

Innocently, just to see the joy in them because their joy that made her day.

Once,she is around them and they are sad.
She felt that she has failed to be the angel.

The angel miss her mum.

Porky Curry Nasiyyy!

Humongous credit to Lydia Anita..lophe ya my beautiful bedmate! :]