心里有数

和你用完了晚餐 陪你走一段

这条小巷 怎么走不完

能够说的都说完 没话题别勉强

分开了那么久 有什么遗憾

都应该遗忘

爱不爱你我心里有数

反正不能回到最初

原谅是一种天赋

寂寞的话我也懂得应付

没有谁比较无辜

两人在一起 不一定幸福

你在谁的国度 我不想在乎

其实没有你想象 那么的严重

你离开我 没破坏什么

时间的疗伤作用 你不得不认同

我们还是朋友 就只是朋友

现在到以后

爱不爱你我心里有数

反正不能回到最初

原谅是一种天赋

寂寞的话我也懂得应付

没有谁比较无辜

两人在一起 不一定幸福

你在谁的国度 我不想在乎

爱不爱你我心里有数

反正不能回到最初

原谅是一种天赋

寂寞的话我也懂得应付

没有谁比较无辜

两人在一起 不一定幸福

你在谁的国度 我不想在乎

弦子

teka ning jogja yuk!

 This is my first trip with life-long bestfriends after i moved to Jakarta, it is incredibly memorable! Our plan at first, was to go to Bangkok.. We already booked the accomodation and bought the ticket to Bangkok, but while we are counting the days to Bangkok, there are unfortunate accident happened to Bangkok cos of dreadful drought (ps:pray for Bangkok) so in the last minute, we decided to go to Djogjakarta and visit one of the 7 wonders of the world,Borobudur. Since this is our first time there, we really anticipated our trip!Although there are some small disputes before going there,still,we get through it cos great friends bond in woe and joy!

We went to Goa Pindul on the last day before our evening flight, cos on the last night staying at Djogja, some local told us about that place we shouldnt missed to go..Cave tubing is an once in lifetime experience i bet?Great outbound and a real close to nature!you might not know what it is inside the cave but that is the excitement which gives delirious thrill and it was my first time jumping off from a not really tall cliff but a good try cos i dont really know how to swim, so it's a 50-50 of boldness..

We got the chance to see the silver workshop where the silver artist( by the way the skills are inherited from the generation through generation, so they are born to be silver artist) are well adepted and one piece of work can cost up to Rp 45 million :]
I also got the chance to do batik painting!they are amazing woman with beautiful craft~

We also managed to go to Keraton (the Sultan Palace) and learned many historical artefacts or story of Java kingdom, and one thing that captured me is the camera that used by Sultan Hamengku Buwono lX, an epic polaroid XD

And Borobudur, one of the amazing and wondrous thing Man in this world can created, every walls has its stories and we were lucky to have a capable guide who tell us many informations that we might not come across on our daily lives. In addition,we had a "romantic" ambience at Borobudur due to the rain!outstanding colorful umbrella eh,behind the gray walls..

 Thanks to Bobby and Cynthia, we got to see the famous Merapi volcano at last, because each time when we want to go there, rain poured heavily in Djogja and it was very dangerous to go there because of hard haze.
That 3 kids standing on the edge, infront of them is dont know how many thousand feets of ravine. We dont even dare to go anywhere near there.
not even a parental guidance..what if the city kids who are standing there, imagine it?

 We reached Merapi almost in the late noon, so the haze started to blanket the volcano slowly, cant really see the tip of the volcano but at some point we were able to see the mouth where the monstrous larva come out.

 And the foods in Djogja obviously good!! and they had some creative and unique restaurants, such as Jejamuran(all foods based on mushrooms,delicioushroom!), Artemy Gelato (nice gelato and elegant interior), Kali milk (fresh milk with many flavours,all worth trying) and one unique restaurant that serves a gigantic porridge with a very reasonable price,you can find it only at House of Raminten.......

yogyakarta sek apik apik temen!

那些年，我們一起追的女孩

Minna Sora no Shita (Under Everyone's Sky)

Namida nagasanai　donna ni tsurakute mo

Dare ni mo makenai tsuyosa motteru no wa

Mawari o kanashimasenai　anata no yasashisa

Mitsumeru hitomi　kotoba nakute mo

Tsutawaru anata no omoi

Makenai yo tte　ganbaru yo tte

Nando mo yasashiku warau n da

Anata no egao wa dare yori mo kagayaki

Kumorizora made hare ni shite shimau

Nando mo takai kabe　norikoeta kara

Nani mo kowakunai　hitori ja nai yo

Minna sora no shita

Ii kaese nakute　kuyashikatta yo ne

Hitori de naiteta hibi mo "ima" ni tsunagatte

Ooki na hana o sakasou to shiteru

Chiisa na mune ni shimaikonde iru

Sora ni nita　ooki na kokoro

Nakanaide tte　daijoubu tte

Tsutsumikomu you ni warau n da

Hoshi ga kao o da shi　anata ga nemuru koro

Onaji sora no shita　negauhito ga iru

Ashita mo anata ga waratteraremasu you ni tte

Mimamotteru yo　tooi basho kara

Minna sora no shita

Yawaraka na kaze o fukasete

Machi wa sotto　irozuiteku

Anata no egao wa dare yori mo kagayaki

Kumorizora made hare ni shite shimau

Nando mo takai kabe　norikoeta kara

Nani mo kowakunai　hitori ja nai yo

Minna sora no shita

You won’t shed any tears no matter how hard it gets

Your tenderness won’t let anyone around you be sad

Because it contains an undefeatable strength

When I look in your eyes

Your thoughts come to me without words

I won’t give up, I’ll keep trying, you say

As you show me gentle smiles

Your smiling face shines brighter than anyone

Even the cloudy sky clears up

I’ve climbed over countless high walls

So nothing scares me, I’m not alone

We’re all living under the sky

I regretted not being able to reply

All the days I cried alone are connected to the “present”

Now they’re trying to make a large flower bloom

Stuffed in your small chest

Lies a heart as huge as the sky

Don’t cry, it’ll be alright, you say

As your smile wraps around me

The stars show their faces as you sleep

Someone is praying under the same sky

That you can still smile when tomorrow comes

I’m watching over you from far away

We’re all living under the sky

A soft wind blows

And the city quietly begins to take color

Your smiling face shines brighter than anyone

Even the cloudy sky clears up

I’ve climbed over countless high walls

So nothing scares me, I’m not alone

We’re all living under the sky

Ayaka

i will wait for you

Hongkong and Mainland

How i Love HongKong and how i wished that i can go back there again and again and again...

 I like the flyover,the roads in Hongkong, neatly coordinate and road users are abiding law citizens!thumbs up!and the road is clean!

 Billboards light up almost in every street especially in Thsim Tsa Tsui area,or the night markets!the night is forever busy!

 We stayed in a hotel called Panda Hotel that almost every things in the hotel have the panda image on or design like one :]:]:] i love panda!

the central of Hongkong is my background across the river,from kowloon to Hongkong island took an hour of ferry ride.

 in the midst of our sightseeing, there is this Christian group worshiping and giving a bag of devotional (in mandarin). Many join them hymning. i was amazed,there were different tourists who came together praising the Lord. Wherever we are,God is with us.

 A day trip to ShenZhen, this is at the window of the world, where there is mini Eiffel at our background. The temperature is really hot that we only managed to take a few shots!woooots x

 

thanks to them, toni and friends, we got to try choutoufu!im loving it!love love love it!

Beijing road @Guangzhou, endless street of shopping stalls...full of crowd but we decided to go back there again if we had chance!hah!

and from this trip, i dread the most is one: i didnt have the time to go to DISNEYLAND!so close yet i cant make it!argh!next trip...next trip....hopefully soon...<3

second: i cant meet my violetboy who is just another 2 hour plane ride from GuangZhou :'[

till we meet again......

batam island short trip!

i mentioned my trip before but the picture is here now!yay!

 

This cruise is identical to JUMBO seafood restaurant (dragon boat) in Hongkong or Singapore, this is the baby size..the restaurant is not open yet but we can get the chance to tour inside the cruise

 Can you actually see the PLANE? i still remember clearly the feeling of lying together with my bestie looking at the beautiful sky,a little taste of heaven~i missed them already :']

bright colour always gives a nice background so we had a short session of "pre-wed" photoshoot :P

 i forgot what the resort called,but it has nice view with private boats around!and water sports..

Oke,compare this picture and picture below...Dina took this picture for us and below,i took it!i just found out that i was really bad taking "on air" shots..bah!they grumble alot at me cos i tried 10 times :/ and still couldnt take one great shot..hihi..Dina is a Pro!^^

This is another resort,at Sekupang..many Buddhist come here to pray because there is a big statue of Kwam Im here.

bridal makeover

This is some of my clients...some of my works ^^

 

i used to have an aversion on doing this job,this line,because i feel this job is really onerous!literally.....every person has their different flaws to cover and we need to find out their glowing sides to bring out their best.Especially when it is for studio shoot...each details on the facial portrayal and hair need to be overlook carefully.i had my moment of tension but thanks to God,i was given the confidence and strength to keep going despite the critics and pressure of doing it perfectly.

I also realised one thing when im doing this job,i observed it many times that whoever the lady is,whether she is naturally a beautiful person,has a mediocre look or a so-so person... they are eventually turn out to become the most beautiful woman,or a very beautiful lady after bride makeover. i believe is not only through the works of a make-up artist but because all creation of God is indeed amazingly created.furthermore,they are going to be a happy bride as they are those the lucky ones to be able to meet with their destined partner.

anyway,my aunt is really super duper pro make up artist, and i look up upon her...she can change anyone to be at their best,whether the groom or the bride.In the mean time as i work progressively,i also work on the improvements and i will work really hard for the perfection!

if those living in Jakarta,feel free to check out our bridal!
LOUIS BRIDAL [office contact: 021 6333649]

i like explanations

Ah~ah~ah~ now i took ages to post something in my blog even at the moment i have so much to say but i just couldnt sit down nicely and type insanely...

1.I always feel tired when i reached home, the only thing in my mind is always a nice shower and my bed.
2. the wi-fi modem is under repair,and it has been repairing until i dont know when it will be fixed so i need to go to living room for surfing the internet and i always get attention of what im doing with my lappie which i dont like that at the end,i felt slack doing it.
3.Now, im having long term break....before that,several weeks ago...i was having lingering madness to get the term over.it was overwhelming.. long queue of projects and theory papers to study!now it's finally over and i have already seen my term results,at least the effort paid off,well,good enough.
4.though i am having term break now,i cant be a bummer at home,or go wherever as i wish,as some of you know i work as a make up artist in my aunt's bridal and there are many couples having pre-wed shoots and the d-day of the wedding days almost on every week so im getting attached with the bridal almost everyday.
5.there are pending post coming up! ^^

community called love

it was really raining raining raining so heavily out of sudden when i was about to go to this cell group at City Tower,and i had to argue with my family because they thought it was really dangerous for me to go anywhere at that time. Well,i made my choice and i choose to go because i thought i dont want to owe another excuses for a friend who was waiting for me to come.after two years living in Jakarta,i decided to step my feet back again into this community called FA,two years was such a long time but poof it feels like yesterday. Before i reached this FA, the rain didnt stop but the car stopped,yea this things happened so often in Jakarta,stucked in the gridlock traffic,and time is clicking so fast. im used to it already,and there is nothing to blame,you just had to figure out the way to be save from the situation so i got out from the car and walked under the rain surrounded by men and women dressed in executive uniforms trying to fight the rain along Sudirman district. it feels so good somehow!XD
So when Andri,the leader said do you really need to go through all this trouble to do something,even simple things like going to tonight FA?is it worth it?.....he said,well,it's not about that,it's about the commitment you make within yourself. ahah *jing a ling jing*, yea,i felt it..it's true about commitment,even the tiny little thing you promise you will make it happen, all those bricks that comes in your way, they will be broken in two because you keep telling yourself,deep in your heart it says that it must be done,it must be done. I said i cant turn back,i cant go home with empty purpose and im tired giving reasons cos im tired of others will think is just another excuses.. so with a skin that feel so thicked i reached at the fa with more than an hour late and everyone is new to me except for Andri and Steven.a very good first impression eh,but after i explained to them how i got there,they were totally understood,'heavy rain eh?traffic jam?'..see this is the thing about living here,you are easily understood for giving those reasons when you are late.
another thing that is "jing a ling jing",andri said about the robotic life in our lives,again i feel so close to it and this is why my two years i passed with less meaning,not so meaningful and recently i just realised it,feel so strong in my mind that something has gone wrong and i need to fix it..yea,that night conclude it all..in this robotic life we live,we sometimes need to change the mechanic of life by ourself,we cant depend on others to make it a happening life so why dont we start to give first rather than we wait for others to give it to us? Luke 6:38 Give, and it will be given to you. They will pour into your lap a good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and running over. For by your standard of measure it will be measured to you in return
and being back at the fa again,it's not only about the new people i met but i feel so glad to be in the ring where i can feel what i used to feel back then in fa blessed,and yes im officialy so officially missed FA BLESSED!i miss each everyone of you.....

yet!

Jakarta for Jesus

#feel so good to be in the crowd again praising and worshiping!
#jakarta youth is so happening!they were overflow!yay!
#a special testimony from a superstar Vanness Wu really gave a great impact!
#Ps Philip Mantofa,i want to hear you more and more!
#Jesus,You are the only way,the truth and the life!

after easter...

 "Heal my heart and make it clean

Open up my eyes to the things unseen

Show me how to love like You have loved me

Break my heart for what breaks Yours

Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause

As I walk from earth into eternity"

                                          Hossana-Hillsong

This is my favourite song of all time but when this song was played as one of the worship song on the Easter service at the church last Saturday...each of the word,each meaning behind the words consumed me all over again..

i watched Passion of the Christ,i read the Luke verses,i pray,im indulge in the Easter celebration,Easter mood but.....what is it that i
            should do after all these passed,back to the routines,
back to reality..another new days,
another new weeks and another new months...

that few lines from a song,explain it all......

when you miss someone

i tried to blow
this colorful windmill

   with all my might,so i can let go 

    all the beautiful affliction

   caused by missing you

la réalité

"After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn
that love doesn’t mean leaning
and company doesn’t always mean security.
And you begin to learn
that kisses aren’t contracts
and presents aren’t promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman,
not the grief of a child
and you learn
to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow’s ground is
too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down
in mid-flight.
After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn..”

—	Veronica A. Shoffstall

enjoy the humps!

今后不再怕天明,我想只是害怕清醒
[No longer afraid of the future dawn,i would like to just afraid of waking]

what do you feel when somebody woke you up in the middle of the night,telling some little news that make all your fairy tale dream shattered apart and then you were forced to go back to sleep with a suffocated heart,hoping that you quickly find the door back to your wonderful dream,forgetting about how you feel a while ago.

these days,as emotional as i was,i tend to easily forget my-self [my hyphen SELF], the girl who loves so much fun and the girl who doesnt care being different, the girl who continually being drill to be stronger that no problem is bigger than her God so eventually she should know now,she can be herself in any kind of situation at any time.. I dont feel that way,im drifted away....easily satisfied,easily happy yet also easily broken and easily sad...everyday fill with bizarre anxiety that sometimes i hope the heart was freeze to the coldest temperature.I began to start liking reading some inspirational forwarded msgs or forwarded quotes and listen to songs and feel hey,it's so me..so me...to make me feel better...then i'm back to being unhappy..start wondering,wonder and wonder until i feel uneasy because of it.

so i realise....there is this time in life even your level of maturity,your age,your social status,your uniqueness or level of self-conscience wont be able to help you to pass the days with dont worry be happy attitudes... they dont..i still decided on one of the choices without all those above and most of the time i've chosen the wrong choice... what to do then?i try the gray shades,far from black and white choices. Try to have the ability to let go and embrace the virtues of not knowing,of not planning and not trying to fit too neatly into the box. because all the little setbacks are just temporarily as fast as it will go away like the speed of capsule locomotive...accept it and brave it!...not afraid of laughing out loud and not afraid of crying out loud..cos i have the greatest counsellor!

cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you 1 Peter 5:7

they will gone with the wind~ 

in my enduring young adulthood......... let's embrace on jolie laide of life.....

quand je regarde ma vie

when i look at my life and its secret colors,i feel like bursting into tears. Like that sky, it's rain and sun both, noon and midnight. You know,i think of the lips i've kissed and of the wretched child i was and of the madness of life, the ambition that sometimes carries me away. i'm all those things at once. im sure there are times when you wouldnt even recognise me. Extreme in misery, excessive in happiness - i cant say it.  ~ Albert Camus