Facing the giant

living in Singapore although alone,my life is easy but being here at Jakarta,i was slapped awake to the reality and i concluded that it's very scary,at least for me..

The challenge is begin.

My Giant is myself,my weakness of having too many choice.

this is the time for me to grow,to choose and to be responsible of what i've chosen.

to learn to promise that i wont regret it.

I'm still glad after i've chosen it,many interesting mystery of this place is open to me.I'm starting to love this place and excited to wait for many more unlock treasure :]

You see,being a God's child,even you go to a most deserted place,you wont be afraid because you are yourself the light.

Post birthday appreciation

my night with my princesses

one wet night,four of the foursome [Lolla,Jenita,Rachel and myself] had a blast together for that almost 5 hours.
I missed Rachel and she is now with her new chic haircut,she blew me away :P

we did what the girlfriend does,though it's just a short one,from my part;i really enjoyed it.
To have 'click and we are a great' girlfriends is not easy.

The rules for girlfriends: i'm just kidding!

Yes,because we doesnt need that.We are different,obviously.We are all from God's kingdom.

So yesterday night was an awesome night.

We had our dinner at all time favourite Kentucky and although we had movie to catch in less than 10 minutes,being us...we wont miss the snapshots in the Big Box called neoprint.

and so on our way to our big screen,heh,we discuss our problem to make the picture bigger by using a midi called scanner,we need someone who has it...that is the disadvantage taking picture in the box,you'll receive tiny print.and the problem carried till we've finished watching the movie.

our big screen; Nick and Norah's infinite playlist,it's a hilarious movie with some controversial though but that is fine,because that's not the point from the movie.It's also my first time watching with my love Lolla.she quite a HOO-HAA..hehe...it was great!

and our night ended up with eating DONUT.nobody hates it in our clique!heh.

anyway,thank you for the teddy&flower lolla,i feel like i'm your spouse!hope Kuya dont mind!

My...My...My...i cant get away smiling thinking of them.

P.s:my night still continue with Jenita,doesnt we baby?

Graduate last Saturday

Kewl :#

why am i feeling real sad?
I should be happy that i've reached my 6 months target working at breadtalk,i survived well.Shouldnt I?Hey!it's myself i'm talking about!
But..i've grown there,that is the problem.it has became a sentimental value.

everywhere there is a door,people pull and push,close and open.and the door has become a tool for people to come and go.

colleagues that i met initially at breadtalk,all of them went to another place though we knew just for awhile but that is fine,i'm feeling normal.after they went,the new colleagues who came,these people who is the one i spent my long hours with until the very last hour im at centrepoint breadtalk.I'm going to miss them very much.
Time is the machine to grow value.

I learnt alot from there.they are also the place to make me grow closer to being a God's child.
My patient is being test,my anger is being test,my humbleness being test and my wisdom is being used.
They are also the ones who i keep trying to show that being a child of God is really a great thing!
In return,they know I love Jesus and Jesus loves me.They respect us.

I also learnt bits of managing a business,customer needs,production and skills.

I also learnt breads,breads and breads!many type of breads!

but one important thing that i've learnt,is to accept a person in any condition they are from.To love them whoever they are,like Jesus loves me whoever I am.

Thank you for the opportunity Lord.

little mission

He was in the world, and though the world was made through him, the world did not recognize him. He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him. Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God--children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband's will, but born of God. The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the one and only [Son], who came from the Father, full of grace and truth. John 1:10-14 TNIV

a little secret wish from the heart
i want those,to worship and dance for Him too.

I've decided

Being a being
never have enough of anything
something different,something new....
always searching and trying....
Being a being
As a curious man I'am myself,
i dont want to miss a single thing..
most of the thing that this world gave....

Just last night,in the car filled with songs that dedicated to You.
i wish i can say that is the best moment
because it's when i realised I found my comfort back...
I choose not to leave You anymore.

Being a Being
when i've found my comfort corner,i'll keep still.
Doesnt care what the world says and do
no more searching and trying
because i clearly know..
i care what the Heaven says.

You are the place.
My God.

The owner turns 20

The one who borns on the tail of the year,like mine...is really amazing..i used to grump,why i have to wait for 12 months to be 17 or even 21 [the Adult ticket] but now....i feel really really blessed that i was born on 9 December,feel young is great!

Let me have this chance to do ice breaking for the numerical 20 and to give thanks to each every one around me!

Thank you my FAB for sweet sweet surprise....

Thank you bradellites for the prezzie!:]

Thank you my centrepoint breadtalk peeps for the gifts and teddy bear!

Thank you zen and dina and the guys for doorstep surprise!

Thank you my friends around the world for precious wishes!

A big Thank You for my Daddy in heaven,for them to be in my life.
For Jesus in my life.
For each and everything that I have now.
For that,today i still have the chance to give thanks.
Only You.Thank you.

For the past 19 years.....my childhood,my teenhood...

Goodbye!

Unplugged today

A Famosa resort hotel,wondering why is an A?hehe

*more pictures at my picasa :P

Unplugged....

Days like the rope of the moving bridge above the sea at Palawan beach ;thick and long,finally i can walked through.
Today,I'm able to rest myself at home.My soul,my mind and my body.

when i'm on my way home today,the smell of christmas has begin to work out in my nose.The log cakes that already displayed,the christmas songs and decorations that almost complete on the street.And somehow i felt the atmosphere of christmas is more exciting this year,the initial atmosphere and the making up.My profession at Breadtalk is the addition to the feeling because so far i'm already bake many items for christmas.

Did i ever mention my 100 things to do in life?although i still have 30 more to fill...

Yahoo!just last weekend i've completed one.my childlike wish of travelling by train.

Some wishes,you need to grab it,plan it and achieve it by yourself after all.Thanks to beloved ce Elisa and Ko Bayu taking up leave just for this trip.

I used to drag when i was offered to go to KL or Genting but this time i tried to open my heart for my train trip.Melaka has given me another sides of look on Malaysia.A small town but consist of many historical belongings.A small copy of Rome,many churches in Melaka although we just managed to go to 2 churches.

and what captured my heart is the ruins of St Paul,we went there almost in the night.climb up long steps to the hill of St Paul,make up to the night time.Couldnt take many great pictures because no current of electricity light up the place maybe because to complete the whole ambiance.if not,i cannot feel and watch the beautiful Melaka at night.Truely voila.The place is dark and Praise God i didnot feel the eeriness of the place or maybe i choose not to imagine it.:]

The next day,before we went to A Famosa resort,Melaka is pouring.One of the shop lady has told me that it's been so long that Melaka has been living in sunny days,it's good that it's raining.I'm looking on the bright side,we brought luck to Melaka but not us and other tourists.Still we choose to buy umbrella and continue our searching.It's nice.

A Famosa resort,compare to Sentosa is widely different ofcourse.One is a sunny resort,one is a resort that consists of Zoo and water world.We went to spend half days in the water world and almost fed up in the night.Stay in the exclusive room at the resort doesnt give you any special privilege.A warning,it's hard to find food.We are not silly enough to spend another bucks on the Cowboy Town where the source of food located because after long search we actually can get the walk in pass,a free pass.When one person is hungry,the emotion is fired up.Many minus point we want to give to this resort but after our tummy is filled plus the sudden fireworks above our seat and the cute pony we could touch.I'm happy,i'm contented easily.

ah,the train.the main focus of this trip is actually the train but i almost miss it.the train trip is great.Not so expensive and quite clean.no traffic and side by beautiful greenery views.

Thanks Daddy for the wondrous weekend trip.

I'm satisfied.

17 October

at that one day of this month,
She miss her mum very very much.

I'm Yours retreat

Tante Betty and Omp Djohan is with us too

KAK SURYADI



We served them,but One day..They will served Him too..
The Army of Jesus






I've prepared my heart really well for this retreat because i believed no ordinary that i will received from this retreat but an extraordinary one :] and i'm right.

begin with Sunday School service in the morning at Hyatt,sermon by Kak Suryadi..it's an unexpected start of the whole retreat thing!i can only conclude through pictures.No matter how well i described the presence there,image is more alive than words.

At the retreat,i shared a room with my 3 girlfriends,a really really another blessing that i can sleep in a room with three Sweet,Humorous,Beautiful and full of amazing characters princess.
Lolla,Thien and Fitri.
This is a voila bonus from the retreat.I love You.

With Kak Suryadi as our teacher at the retreat.You are really a wonderful creation of God.i'm proud that i have a chance to know him.Kak Suryadi sessions are funny and not vacuum because his sessions has brought me deeper knowledge to God's words.And a great driven to be a better child of God.

Filled Spiritually,i'm also filled with delicious food.

This retreat,i dont want to let it go as a waste.

never too late :P

it's one day close to the end of October

although...time has passed....Good news is still good news...to me it's like a bread freshly baked from oven which taste delicious and even until the bakery is close somehow the bread is still edible and delicious.

So the very first is My beloved cousin,Poppy Ludovita turns 17,and i'm happy that finally i managed to get her a proper present and hope that she like the music player.

Secondly,Omedetou to my beloved Ce Fenny and Ko Edo for their beautiful wedding and especially family Blessed has contributed to the wedding merry by [i shall say rare opportunity] of dance choreographed only for her. Plok Plok Plok Blessed!

Thirdly,Omedetou to ce Sanny and Ko anchiang wedding too!they are my colleague at sunday school!

Fourthly,the quote 'save the best for the last' is true indeed..hehe...it's the I'm Yours retreat [retreat specially for Sunday School teachers] .....
as the title of the retreat,at that moment...at that 3 days,continuously I feels His presence..continuously anointed by Him,continuously fill with deeper knowledge of His words,continuously praising Him
That moment,i committed that I'm His...

Lastly,to October Babies...Happy Birthday!

Note: I'm still Devi with limited memory that needs to re-read the schedules recorded in my calender,so above sequence is by the weeks...How amazing that my weekends this month is filled with good news...

I'm the Lady Army!

Hehehe...
This is so cute,Kids Army is getting better~even now we have our own mascot...

Backtrack,since years ago....i'm yearning to wear a costume,big costume and pretend that you are the character.To shake hand with the kids,to see the eagerness of them waiting for a chance to take picture,to see some crying children because some maybe scared.

4 years ago,my friend introduced me to go for an audition as one of their mascot for some exhibition and undoubtedly i went there to try.There were strawberry shortcake and friends,pikachu and friends costume.

Mukya...i want to try all the costumes and take alot of picture but sadly...because of my height,i'm unable to fit the costume,too tall for the costume :P

and recently,after watching nodame cantabile,my desire was re-light again,that nodame chan and her cute bear costume.
Every function or event,i always suggest that i want to wear cute mascot but futile because it's not cheap.hehehe...

I'm glad that yesterday,i have a chance to wear Kids Army mascot although only for few minutes.It is much much more better than any other mascot because it represents the army of God,the army of Jesus.

it's true

it's true...that we didnot sit side by side when we were in the kindergarten
it's true...that we didnot share lunchbox when we were in elementary school
it's true...that we didnot wear the same length of skirt when we were in high school
it's true...that now,we each have our own endless fizzy busy activities
it's true...that now,we each have more important person in our life
it's true...that we didnot chit and chat everyday
it's true...that we didnot meet each other often
it's true...that because through Him,i've met both of you
it's true...that presently,i'm so happy to meet both of you
it's true...that i dont care the past,i care for our future
it's true...so true,that i Love you.

Fly to the sky

RACHEL - WANG YU FEI



that's her name - Wang Yu Fei....i can see she is now fledgling and soaring...
This demure innocent sweetheart has melt my heart yesterday and by hook or crook,i must write about her.
Days filled with humps and unreturned rest...
one fine day,she and a man [ko Grady] was waiting for me besides the house of bread where i work as the builder.
when i met her,we hug each other like i've known her for life but has never meet for a long period of time.that kind of tenderness is only the beginning.She passed me her hard work of achievement,it's a box of sushi and all specially for me,the whole tenderness filled me by then :]

I met Rachel,if my memory didnot failed me,it was on last december.Trying to know her with my broken chinese and impressed by her taste in fashion.From that moment,i think she is cute.

i dont know what plan that Daddy is giving me but to reach there,He always make me happy.This time,His present for me is her,to keep me smiling on the way to His plan.

Thank you Daddy,Thank you Rachel :]

Better is open rebuke
Than love that is concealed.
Faithful are the wounds of a friend,
But deceitful are the kisses of an enemy.
Proverbs 27:5-6

Let's soar together,high up into the sky!

Roti formula one

Upcoming phenomenal event of formula one in Singapore,Breadtalk also join in the fever!they doesnt want to miss a single thing or maybe,they must follow up to avoid being old-dated and make it up to their brand standard.So they have this giant racing car bread.only for display although it made of real bread!
No...no...not i'm the one who did this,i did the small one though :P

Mama and her dessert

She used to cook for me this dessert,she called it 'Biji Salak' and this dessert has always become the best dessert in my life.When i asked for it,without hesitation,she will go to the market the very next day to buy the main ingredient;sweet potato.although she always at her hectic schedule,she doesnt care.And that whole pot of dessert,i can finish it happily.

and now,i miss it so much that i try to experiment it myself.as i say,nothing can beat hers,even her own daughter.

Anyway,Thank you for the comments my lovely peeps.

i am content for now.

Shella Angelia

Ta Daa!
The time is 11:45 pm,ce Anita and me just received a great news from this bubbly and lovely and beautiful mademoiselle that her trip to France and UK for study tour is successful!

She is going to France tomorrow and she has already prepared all her travel necessities but her visa to UK is rejected due to many setbacks such as incomplete document,time constraint and many more....France is ready long ago...
she almost at her lowest pit,she is at her most breaking point possibilities but still,she has a God,my Daddy,to keep her calm and walk her through her obstacles.
She keep holding on to her Faith and Hope.
Fortunately,today just before the trip,Daddy reward her a most beautiful answer,her visa to UK is approved.

When i see her just now,at nearby our house,she was happily jumping around,hugging each one of us,Heaven knows how estactic she is.

His grace is never late...and as her child i can only share how Awesome He is in an instant :]

I finally understood,when the time is right,everything will be alright.

But only,if you decided to walk with Him till that time.

BOnjour Paris!Hello Queen!

Sheila,you promised me Oleh-oleh!HORE!

OMEDETOU!

Omedetou!omedetou!
Omedetou to Ce Lydia Anita for one great achievement..i am really proud to be on the same bed with you!hehehe....:]
Omedetou to Ce Yohanna Laurus ( ce Jojo) for having her first car!hehe...ce dian and myself are honoured to be the first passengers,to witness your initial thrill and excitement of driving your first own personal car!hehe..cece!kamu lucu sekali!
Omedetou to lolla and andri!happy one year!and many many years!:]
Omedetou to myself too!that exactly today,i managed to survive the 3 months of probation at Breadtalk!peeps,i learned more than just songsong aye!hehehe...

:]

new discovery:
years filled with tear and joy that i spend with my beloved bible,
today i just realised it's a Catholic bible....
Makasih ko Sam!
hehehe...

i like him

Remember Horton Hears a Who?
Most of you remember the elephant,i bet.
Horton?Oh...the Elephant movie right?
But i remember this cute little boy,who keeps quiet all the time but at the end of the show,he amazed me by his beautiful voice and he saved his world.I like him.

And now,more realistic and alive.I was introduced again to this type of guy..hahaha...both are one of a kind,both are self-pity to have their kind of family and both DONT TALK!
Dwayne,as realistic as he is,he has a real name called Paul Dano.In the movie,he took a vow of silence until he get to enter a Pilot school.Will you do something like that to encourage yourself?
but sadly he turns out to be colour blind and he is so mad that the first sentence he spoke after 9 months of silence is "I HATE YOU ALL!" [all:his family]
but after he cools down he says:"I'm Sorry,i'm really upset.those words i said,i dont mean it".
he still knows how to apologise because he loves his family after all and especially his sister..
His expression in the movie is so cyuteee..hehe..I like him.

September Movie :]

A movie freak i am,
September only passed by,a week. and many movie has captured my heart..hehehe....
and so i watched Wedding Gaze,My DNA says i love you,Little miss sunshine and the latest,Hana Yori Dango Movie..
These movie,never fail my first sight.[love at first sight dink*]
Yea.....different movie has given me different messages of love but only one that didnot pampered me and most of movie audience,those happy ending movie,it's the Little miss sunshine,rate by stars i'm gonna give the stars in the sky,rate by thumbs i gonna give my thumbs and borrowed my friends thumb.
I watched it real late though,late in hour and late in time..Gotcha?
the movie was commented two years ago and i just knew it recently few days ago from Ce Anita,we went to Dvd kiosk to rent it and didnt manage to watch it until the very last minute of due rental.Try not to disturb our neighbour,room and houses,we are accompanied by two headset [amazed by nowadays gadget,two headset can be pluck in a laptop]...i think it's useless,because we laugh louder.
Little Miss Sunshine is about a dysfunctional family,means: they are not born as a doctor,lawyer or role model family every family yearns it.Each member of the family has their deep weakness and they know that they have a family that is so so imperfect but inside them,they each have a role to act when they are together and they truly love each other.Many things from the movie i cant describe here,i'm overwhelmed beyond the words.Hahaha [HUA JANG!]
I love the volkswagen car,i love the messages...
I love Dwayne...my new crush...

Hana Yori dango!i wont forget to mention how great you are too!hahaha..SUKIDES!:]

That girl in a crowd

Running and running...
doesnt mind that she's uncivilised...
passing by bumping crowds...
hear many scowling...
forget her weary...
forget her messiness....
she's trying to catch every minute with Him...
she miss Him so much...
dejected that she is late..
not for the band...
not for the guest band...
not for the new faces...
but for Him,
the time that she can rejoice,
the time that she can jump,
all For Him...
and yes,
she is there in the crowd,
refill again with new grace,
her longing is returned,
she is touched,
that she can let go her spring
she is touched,
that He let her feel Him
every single minute she is there,
she is touched,
because He really knows her,
His grace is never late.
that girl is me.

*TLG Youth Conference 2008,Saturday night.*

only heaven knows

It might be too late,i know..
Again i'm going to say the dull word again! MISS!
the days have passed,and all will be kept in your memory but sometimes,it might just lost...lost in space
I dont know how many parts that i've lost because too much of present has indulged me in it now....i need a break...a real break...
I treasure simplicity and heaven knows i need it now.
It's time for me to think of my next plan,my next step and with this present i'm living now,I cant do it oh Daddy...
Not just an excuse to have all the leisures that i Love to do,not just a lazy day at home,not just a day without responsiblity...
I need to find out myself Daddy,what do i really want...I can just be sleeping through time and let Your will be done,but again Heaven knows..What do i really want..I want to run to know it and to know Your plans for me because i dont want anymore redundant fats to slow me down!
I need a break...a long break...

Light embarrassment

Today,i was asked to get an imunisation jab called Typhoid pronounce as:tai-void...and finally i got a chance to fulfil my pending mission of knowing my blood type. :p
And so this is maria and the doctor...
Maria: Doc,is it possible that you check my blood type on the same time?
Doc: Ofcourse dear,you just need to pay $15...but why you need to know your bloodtype?
Maria: [annoyed by his smirking face] oh,i lost track of it Doc.

while he's doing the injection...

Maria:Doc,do you have psychology statement for each of blood type?such as Type A belong to which kind of person?
Doc:[amused] when you know your blood type,it's for an emergency dear.there is no scientific reason behind it.
Maria: [afraid if query for more questions,the doctor charge extra fee for consultation so she choose to keep quiet]

Uuuuhhh....point of the day!is it a crime that until today,i'm clueless what type of blood is flowing inside my body?but come to think of it,it's still embarassing because for almost 20 years i'm living and until today because the result is tomorrow,i still dont know which group that i belong to... :[

Anyway the doctor is right,hopefully...whatever it is,one day..with that precious blood of mine,i can save a life or even more. :]

MADONNA LISA -MONNA LISA

I WAS HAVING JETLAG!
NO,the truth is i was having a teribble headache!
I have just finished a book named I,Mona Lisa by Jeanne Kalogridis.

A huge curiousity behind the smile of this beautiful lady painted by world famous artist Leornado da vinci caused me a halt when i was searching for interesting book to read at my lunch hour.

Now after reading 515 pages for a week,i was satisfied with the book and feels estactic that finally i came to know her life but.....but......when i searched for mona lisa in wikipedia,there is a big contradiction to the book that i read.HUH!

In the book,Mona Lisa's real bond father is Leornado Da vinci.
In the book,Mona Lisa forever in love is Giuliano di Lorenzo de'Medici although Mona Lisa married a second time to francesco because in order to save her Antonio father and herself after the riot in Florence.and also because Francesco told her that Giuliano has passed away.
In the book,Mona Lisa bores Giuliano a son and in order to protect the baby,Lisa survived through pains,lies and hardships.

Yet....Some of the information in the books similar to what wikipedia wrote.

And so i turn to the very last page of the book,and there is a Q&A with the writer.

The writer says that she scrupulously adhere to historical fact that if a fact is recorded,she wont contradict it and she do take liberty in writing possible scenes behind the scenes ,giving the characters motivation to explain their actions because we cant really know what the characters were thinking or what they really intended: that's where fiction enters the story.

She also was forced to speculate more while writing this book for simple reason that little is known about Lisa.and she took advantage of the freedom offered by Lisa's relative anonymity which allowed her to involve Lisa in a conspiracy.

Oh Myong!

The fact is,i enjoyed the book and when i'm reading it,to me it's alive.A really brilliant writer.

And one more fact,LIE and DENIAL never cease till now.

Only,bible,the book of life,is the truth of all.

From deepest of my heart

Hot topic or hot gossip in a society is inevitable,so do a church,and sadly this time i'm involved.
Firstly,let me have this chance to appreciate those who concern and care for me regarding this matter,Heru wijaya and his new partner.
Well....did i feel bad about this?did i feel disappointed?frankly,yes.
But after pondering about this the whole day,and almost mixed up the raisin and chocolate chip,i've finally think through.
No more "finally,he show his true colour","ugh,what a jerk","there are still many fishes in the sea" instead now i turn to look on bright side.
Definition of happiness is different to each individual,and i believe so do him and me.Once you found it,all the causes,reasons way back then doesnt matter anymore,what he had said and done doesnt matter now.How fast we move,How deep is our feeling for each other before doesnt matter anymore.what matter now is present,happiness is not easy to find.
I dare to say,even finding the joy in God.Unfortunate Christians in China have to hold a service secretly and in an uncomfortable underground place to avoid the police.Though even God presence and embrace is within them that they doesnt have to worry so much,they will still feel a bit of uneasiness adrenaline,thus they treasure each minute of it and it become precious to them.
My own happiness?
those around me you are my happiness,presently and futurely.in fact,one of the reasons i love my Daddy so much because of you guys,Minasan-wa.
I'M ABSOLUTELY FINE - DAIJOBUN
I have pass the test well,right daddy?

I'll pay the price

Well...Well....
Since I have the chance to write alot tonight...
I'm pouring like a rain....

It's a joy when meeting the expectations of the person you love,
but the expectation kept growing,and it became a monster.
The joy transformed into the fear of letting that person down..

Still,when everything goes out right..

They are happy and i will be happy..

Hopefully..

An eternal joy.

The Beauty in Ugly

she's so big hearted,
but not so remarkable
just an ordinary humble girl
expecting nothing as we're made to think
its a pretty person's world

but you are beautiful and you better go show it
go look again, you gotta be true to your own
if you really wanna go to the top
do you really wanna win?
don't believe in living normal, just to satisfy demand

well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart
you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly

well you are fresh, you're face is fabulous
don't forget you're one of a kind
when nobody is checking the deeds you've done
and nobody is hearing your cries
you make all of the fashion statements
just by dressing up your mind

well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart
you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly
and see the beauty in ugly

Love,Jason Mraz

My Sweet Anonymouss

ooouch..i miss the first Monday of the new month..it seems like the word Miss (in many category) has been in my daily life verb nowadays.I wouldnt want to miss the Tuesday then..

It's been a hectic week but i'm still the same old devi maria..

in between,I noticed and received unexpected blessings from unexpected person.Well mostly from my work place,obviously,most of my time now has been used up at there.:[

First person i would like to talk about is Xiao Yen.
Xiao Yen is a Malaysian guy,short and at first impression,typical Ah beng.He is friendly though when we met the first time and soon i find him quite irritating in a cute way.He is too straightforward to anyone but after all he had said,he apologised.
So one day,i had a minor cut and went to the basin to wash the blood,suddenly he appeared behind my back and request me to give him my hurt finger,he took out his special plaster and wrap it all around my finger and said "my plaster will give you confidence so dont worry"...I was taken a back and only managed to say thank you.The next day,i had a cut again,maybe due to daydreaming too much,he is the one who helped me again.today,yes,i had a new cut AGAIN on the same spot AGAIN.But,Xiao Yen is not there,he didnt came to work and do you know something?today,I'm like a helpless girl looking for plaster but nobody has it.I just try to bear with the pain.Jeff,another guy,he went to buy plaster at his lunch hour specially for me.reminds me of Batman and Robin,when Batman is not available,Robin come to rescue.Anyway,i must be a troublesome girl with cuts.-they are from Toast Box and now I have 2 Plaster Superman - sometimes daydreaming is dangerous,ouch!

Secondly,Patricia.
Patricia is a petite malaysian girl with a very long hair.She only can speak English and Malay though she is Chinese.We always saying conversations that are not connected.Always not in good terms,although we are just joking but i dislike it.Suprisingly,when i'm really busy with the new olympic breads,doesnt have time to touch my song-song.She came to me and offer me her help.She helped me alot with the Song-Song that i dont have to OT.Is this so called blessing in disguise?

Thirdly,Chen Xin
She is from China,but she has a face of Korean.She is loud,really loud but that makes my life at breadtalk more lively.She never let me hungry,always provide me with my favorite chocolate toast from Toastbox,even when i didnt complain that my tummy is grumbling,she is the one who will ask me whether i'm hungry or offer me freshly toast bread infront of me.precious calories :]

fourthly,Francis.
Francis,is a senior baker.notorious joker at work but sweet loving husband when he's with his wife.i call him Vampire.He is different from above little angels but his action has touched me.He is the only senior baker left that i know since Ah Kun Gege,Esther and Ta susu left.He is going to be promoted to be head baker but yesterday he received call from our manager,he said that Francis has to change his Saturday off to another day onwards,Francis is unhappy because that is the only day he can spend full good time with his wife.He told our manager that he rather not be promoted than have to sacrifice his Saturday.The manager disagree with him and so without second thought Francis chose to quit after 4 years working at breadtalk.Francis's wife ever said to him that she rather spend more time with him than having him work so hard to earn alot of money for them.maybe because of this,he didnt give a second consideration.He say,maybe his next job will be taxi driver.i took a peep at his IC,he is only 26.
Francis is lucky to have an understanding wife plus she is a very pretty singaporean lady.I met her more than once and i like her.She is not typical.I believe he can do better than a taxi driver.

Last,Eleven
Eleven is not her real name,she is from China.She is fun,loud and i admire her beautiful face.She is different from Francis,Xiao Yen,Jeff,Chen Xin and Patricia case.I'm just curious to know why she named herself as Eleven,i know her real name.Today,i enquiry her about that,and she just said that it's her MI Mi ( secret) even her boyfriend doesnt know about it.Hopefully, before i leave breadtalk,she will tell me her little secret.

Phew.....
Why I call them anonymous?because I dont know them too well,only the surface.But yet their initiative and help has became a priceless and precious blessings.

Bon voyage teman-teman

Yare yare...ikut ipan...hehehe...
marilah devi nulis bahasa indo ria hari ini!cuek banget ama temen2 devi yang cuman bisa baca bahasa inggeris..saya juga kangen indonesia banget seperti lollipop!

hari-hari yg penuh dan penuh tanpa nyadar kalo hr ini udah senin!dan bentar lg udah senin pertama bulan depan!...

dan bulan ini,bayangin dhe 8 orang yg devi kenal pergi dr singapur!huhuhuhu...

Cindy,ce Elnia,ce Deasy,ce Faye,Fielny,Elvia,ko Viktor dan ko Kur

uhmmm...devi merasa kehilangan dan sejujurnya iri juga sich sama mereka..devi juga pengen pergi,imigrasi ke negara laen..mencoba ke tempat yg asing,dimana semuanya asing bagi devi..makanannya,orangnya,pengajarannya,budayanya,adatnya,bahasanya..

devi pengen tinggal di salah satu negara di eropa..apalagi England..hidup yg seperti Harry Potter,kalo yg lebih nyata ya pastinya tanpa Hogwardnya tetapi Oxford...hehehe...pake baju sesuai musimnya,yg complete dan jelas...disini mah,hujan aja kadang2 nga jelas..

iya sich,cuman mikir bagus2nya doang dan nga mikirin negativenya...haha..habis,mo gimana lagi?udah pasti dimana ada yg bagus,disitu juga ada jeleknya...jadi ngapaen susah2 mikirin jeleknya..idup ini mah...

Jadi..Teman-teman devi yg udah berkesempatan ke negara-negara laen,ataupun balik ke indo..
inilah kesempatan kalian untuk merasakan kangen ama singapur..pasti kalo gini baru bisa rasain sebenernya singapur gini-gini,devi yakin banyak menyimpan kenangan-kenangan yg indah..pahit,manis,asin,asem..campur aduk dhe..soalnya kita bertumbuh ditempat ini..

Devi juga pengen rasain rasa-rasa ini!Pengen merasakan Singapur yg kadang2 membetekan menjadi Singapur yg amazing!Daddy!ayo kirimkan aku ke negara eropa!jepang ama amerika juga boleh dhe!

oh no!now,my Daddy is a director!

Today...I have the whole day to myself..
Sleep till noon,accompanied by a friendly weather,by hot milo,by delicious lunch cooked by ce Anita's mum...and later at night,durian that ko david bought,Ai's curry chicken dinner..oooh...what more can i ask for?I have been waiting for this day,day that i miss it so much, a homey day.
although,i'm going to miss my Sunday again..but I was overwhelmed by today-rainy day,feeling so comforting that i couldnt care much what will happen next....
In so little time,these days,I managed to finish one great book,one lovely drama.
The book that i've been reading is about a Japanese girl who love pastries and met an american men,went to America to get married but at the end,after the engagement party he ditched her for ex flame.this japanese girl who dislikes japan's system and Japanese man,doesnt want to go back to Japan.She survived in America after going through so many obstacles,her unique character attracted to a Japanese guy that she's living with at America.That Japanese guy also dislikes Japan's system and hate Japan,he also has an American girlfriend.well still,at the end,both of them,both who have the same prejudice fall in love with each other.:]
This book is called,Midori by moonlight.I believe reading a great book,Fate is also involved.for example,i love pastry,so do the main character in the book.in real life will be,Devi by moonlight.hehehe
The idol taiwanese drama that i watched is called smiling pasta,cast:Cyndi wang and Nicholas Teo.a Romance-comedy drama and yes,like it's title,it has made me smile after watching this,melodramatic eh?I dont mind to watch drama that makes me feel happy.I read one of the comment for this drama and captivated by this comment,she says:too bad,it wont happen in the real world.and i was like...hahahaha..do you think she want the sad scenes in the drama do happen in her life?well...she is wrong..in fact,in real life where we are living right now,these sweet,romantic things happened everyday and everytime.For example,after i watched this drama,i read lolla's blog and find out that she has a new friendster,share with her boyfriend..ooohh..sweet!..
For me?in my life,i find myself so blessed,Yes,still,many obstacles that i have to go through,but around me,i'm living with a great family in Singapore,having many great friends,a Fa that loves me.well,maybe now the real lead actor not in the scenes yet but...oooohh...I dont have time to fret and my face never stop smiling.In my life,I have a great director,He gave me the script,i read and in between there is alot of difficult Scenes but it doesnt matter because come to the ending,It's Happy Ending after all.
My life even better than any type of drama because i have the Mighty Director and it is REAl!

Shen jing bing!

A big sighed of relieve that the promotion nightmare is finally over....
Many things that I learned in just that 4 days..
I learned to be careful with my communication,oooh...sometimes it's hard when you have to converse other language besides your own mother language with foreigners.My clique at breadtalk,mostly are chinese from China and Malaysia.The whole conversation apply there is mandarin.I know mandarin,I speak mandarin,I listen to mandarin,I sing in mandarin but i cant argue with mandarin!So because of my limited argument phrase,I shoot off 'Sen jing bing' (crazy) to a China ge ge that has been good and caring to me.
To him,it's really a hurtful word thus he was mad at me,totally mad.He scolded me off in deep and fast Mandarin which i can only respond to him by walking away because i dont understand and doesnt want to make things worse.
Because of that,maybe I became the first 'lucky' girl that has made him throw his temper the first time and to a young girl..hehe..he is not that type of hot-temperred person,he is a happy-go-lucky person and very humorist.
If in Bahasa Indonesia,I say crazy always; enak gila,keren gila,lucu gila!...but to them maybe it's whole lot of different meaning..so the next day i told him about this,he laughed and before even i told him these,he acted so gently to me because he is such a gentleman who is not fret about yesterday events and be petty,but sadly i lost his normal self the way that he used to make me laugh.maybe soon things will work out well,I will learn more of beautiful words in mandarin.

It's a process.Yes,it will make me even a better person this time.:]

Extreme Song -Song!

Just came back from my beloved breadtalk..the exact time is 11.20 pm..
Am I tired after standing the whole day?I would say No.
In fact,Im going to watch a korean movie later on...hehehe...

uhmm...before the Kids biblecamp,they wouldnt let me take a one day leave,even i would want it to be unpaid!and that whole week,i'm on my strike!being childish,at that time,I couuldnt care much!keeping quite the whole time,didnt respond to anything that they say,behaving so Bad and Brat..until the day before the biblecamp,I prayed and gained a courage to ask one last time with a proposal i prepared that I shall take the half day from my off day next week.I was glad that they agreed on it.

Coming back to work on Monday,they asked me to go home after lunch,so Monday is my off day this week and I have returned the half day.due to Breadtalk 8th Anniversary,they are having promotion for 4 days.From this Friday to next Monday.All bread sell at $1.10 and many more other privileges.

This is why I have to go early for work as early as 8 am and go home late at night as late as 10 pm,the earliest until next Monday.Stand the whole day,going to miss my Sunday this week,less leisure time and making thousands of Song-Song in a day.Normally,hundreds.
Amazingly I didnt grumble,feeling furious,complaining and neither do i'm feeling "arrrggghhhh!I dont like this job!" in fact,I feel pretty great and i'm having fun.

I just feel contented because God has answered my Big prayer this month and my mood is great,even to never stop obstacles.Yes,because I believe He is there.

A wife who look on bright sides!

When I know he has an illness,i hope he will recover from his illness..
When I know his illness is getting worse,i hope his illness wont take him away from me..
When I know his illness is incurable,i hope he leave without any pain..
God must have answered to all my prayers,because he leave with his smile on his face..

What a great wife!what a great Hongkong Drama : When Rules turn loose.. :]

Super Kids Saturday

my first time feeling so energised in the morning,even the song-song that i did sold out well,they tried it and it's delicious...ooohh...feeling happy make everything turns out great and i am really happy on that morning because I was able to join the Kids biblecamp although i'm going to miss the first session.
rushing to get my duty done,excited and anxious.one good china man understand that i need to leave already,he asked me to go and he said that he will settle the rest,even punching my time card because I was late by 2 minutes for work and i have to do extra half an hour but thanks to Ta ge ge Ah kun,one of the senior baker...I can leave early.Thanks God for great people at my work place!
So i want pictures to continue my story this time!

http://picasaweb.google.com/marieridingcarousel/SuperkidsCamp

I'm quite sad that i cant stay due to ministering for Junior Kids at Hyatt on Sunday,also sad that i cant join the escape...anyway,I can feel the perfect and wonderful moments of Superkids camp just by hearing from those who is there...awwww...We love you Daddy!Thank you once again!

Daddy reply to my letter

His answer never Late!never...
Today,i received His reply...
He says,my precious,Do you know that I love you so much,more than anything this world can ever give you..
Yes,it's true..this is just a setback,I'll will be with You,i'll be there so everything will be alright...
Don't you read your bible my precious?but don't be afraid.I'm willing to wait.I know deep inside who you are my precious and i love you deeply.
Now,enjoy your Kids Bible camp tomorrow,I'm showing one phenomenal event there,something big that will moved you and the people around you to love me even more.

Psalm 55:22,Cast your burden on the Lord,and He shall sustain you;He shall never permit the righteous to be moved.

ooooooh...what can I say Daddy?do you know that right at the moment,my desire to hug You is so huge....I love You!Thank you Daddy!Thank you!

Letter to my Daddy

Dear Daddy,

I just came back from work today,i felt so irritated and lethargic.This new job that I will talk to You before I go to sleep every night,asking blessings from You when i'm working,for the strength,for the people around me,for the duties that I was given so i can do it fine,basically everything unfortunately sometimes things not going to be in your way.
Today,I felt that i couldn't take it anymore.It's early,I know.Is this just a setback Daddy?which i can overcome easily when You are with me?
Never give up,encouraging phrase that i received all the time and I always wanted to hold on to the phrase but Daddy,You know,until today i've given up so many things.Maybe because i follow my heart too much or i was defeated by my circumstances.Proudly,most of the time,I thought it's a message from you to tell me that You've already prepare a beautiful plan infront of me hence I shall move on.
If You reply to my this letter Daddy,and You tell me not to give up.I wont Daddy because I love you.

your precious

Ngafe Extraordinary

Lovely..:]
family of Equinox :]
one of the nice spot
i'm also a part time model :P
You can see almost everything at central district from here,I was like WOW!

This is the City Square

Oh yes,our usual routines on Sunday,we always try to do something different after our church activities and that last Sunday,Ce Elisa,Lin,Ko david,Ko Bayu and me left with two options.I was made to choose one of the options and i've picked the tiny folded paper that wrote Equinox.
So off we go to one of the top hotel in the world,Swissotel.Equinox is at level 70,and it's my first time standing at a level almost to cloud..almost...:[...when taking the lift you will get few second of jet lag..obviously yes due to Newton's law,gravitation.
Step out of the lift,and what we see is a real breath taking view..really amazing..lovebirds,photographer,models,narcissists,cliques,tourists,everybody..it's a must go and I must say..
Couldn't stop taking pictures,couldn't stop find the right angle so our faces will be beautifully shot until the sky almost change it's skin..
anyway,we supposed to ngafe but every spot we discovered,we will stuck there really long,taking pictures.
City Square ,is the initial place that we should go,and when we reached there,the sky has changed the skin.
another breath taking moment,this time plus the nostalgia songs that played,the night life far below us,the interiors,again we need to make a decision whether we should stay or just leave the place after seeing really amazing view and feel a perfect ambiance.We stayed,it's really difficult to say No for this perfect moment.
So,since the drinks are not simple,not even orange juice,coca cola or mineral water in the menu ,we decided to share.Ce Elisa,Lin and me shared a drink and Ko David and ko Bayu,shared another drink.
Turned out,after a beautiful lady in black (read:the server,executive server i shall say) approached us and informed us that each one of us HAVE to order a drink,our means not to overspend is futile because one glass of drink is at least 15 bucks.Ouch.
Sometimes we need to pay extra for an extraordinary thing and we just need that clise phrase "it's all worth it" to avoid wallet pinch. :]